course by course, one by one...

As the day draws nearer, I get a little more anxious. I'm worried about the pain, the cost, the upbringing, and well, all of it really. And then it kicks, rolls, hiccups. I just tell myself that I just have to take it one day at a time. There's a human in there, in my belly. I still can't believe it. I think it's finally real to Brad. He heard the baby's heart beat through my belly for the first time. He was amazed. I wish I had a picture of his facial expression. Everyday, we both say to each other, we're going to be parents soon. I'm still fascinated by the science of it. It's weird that this kid, or embryo, or fetus or whatever, fits in this tiny little place for so long. I'm hoping it has the best of us combined. Everything, mentally and biologically. I hope it's a better version of us, I really do. I think of my biological parents and what they looked like, what kind of personality they had. I hope, and going to assume that, I was the best of them as well, at least biologically. I'm pretty sure my personality is a result of my environment. And I think that I'm the best of my mom and dad. For all their strengths and weaknesses, I think I got the most out of them while I could, and I hope that they would be proud of that.

it's that time again

I have to start with writing being sick sucks. Pregnant or not. I have had a fucking sinus infection now for two weeks. Friday, while at the dog park, my ears started clogging up. By the time I got home it they were in the worst pain. Of course, all the doctor's offices are closed leaving me with clinic on other side of town or... the dreaded emergency room. I opted for toughing it out. That was the longest night. Maybe 4 hours of sleep. Finally broke down and went to clinic on Saturday. Ear infection. In both ears. What adult gets an ear infection? And WHO gets it in both ears? I know who, me, 7 months pregnant and all. Now, 4 days later, I can't hear for shit. They hurt less, but I can still feel this throbbing. Anyway, enough bitching.

Baby news: Baby is doing good. Had a good sonogram today. Baby is head down and weighing in at almost 5lbs. Fluid around baby looked normal as well. 8 weeks to go. Starting to get more and more anxious. The floors should be installed soon, and then we can work on putting the nursery together. It would be nice to have some quiet time between then and when baby arrives. To squeeze in last chance to... stuff. I'm hoping for another outdoorsy venture at least. Which equates to trips to the stinkin' dog park.

playing with my legos

So, a lot of stuff going on it seems. This week has been busy. Had a doctor's appt. that went ok. Got some strange news about needing another sonogram, not to be alarmed, but as a precaution. On the plus side, we get to see Pokey one more time before delivery. Got to see some family on a surprise visit. Picked a daycare that is both available and not scary! Baking today for a bake sale! Getting our floors delivered tomorrow (making today last day to roller skate, which will be done shortly), so that they can be installed in a couple of weeks. Saturday, I'm going to a SHOW!! Yay!! Sunday, I spy brunch. Again. Anyway, just a brief look.

Ok, thought for the week: I found out the other day that a friend of mine is embarking on a journey, it's not really my business to post their business on my blog, but I just want to give them props. I think it's truly amazing. I don't know, could be the hormones, could be the photo project, but it's been on my mind, and I think it's fucking awesome. I am a believer in what goes around comes around.

Claritin induced candy

I'm bored and I'm sick, so I made these today. Supposed to be Almond Joys, but I tweaked it a lil' bit.

More like... Mounds with almond garnish? Coconut truffles? Either way, they taste good.

and so it begins

Well, this week marks 10 weeks to go. Getting anxious and uncomfortable. The last few days I've just been hot. Some of it is the weather, which I'm not complaining about. I'm complaining that I cannot take off my clothes fast enough when I get home. Oh, and my cravings have increased somewhat. Not complaining there either, quite enjoying that actually, I mean it's food. Mmm, grilled hot dogs. See, they're not even unheard of. On the downside I will not be able to hike, camp or sxsw, and that makes me a lil sad. Soon enough.

Had a productive weekend. Brad put up the closet in the nursery (yay husbands!!) and it looks great. (pics soon, I promise) We also now have functioning blinds in the kitchen. We paid for our floors, and installation should be in the next few weeks or so.

Got to see my ex coworkers from Mars yesterday; that was a lot of fun. I'm hoping to make another round one last time before pokey comes.

Oh, trying to get good video of pokey moving around. It's kind of hard, he must know we're recording and stops moving, already being difficult.

glittery nail polish

I'm back from my weekend in Dallas. Had a good time. Got to see my nieces. They are little characters for sure. 8, 6, and 4. The two youngest were quite fascinated with pokey and kept asking questions like why is he naked and what does he eat. The best is the look on their faces when pokey would kick and move around. They kept wanting to touch it. I like how kids are quizzical like that, but not quite grasping the concept. The oldest even asked if I was going to love it more.

Anyway, went to friend's birthday party on Saturday. Had a lot of fun. Got to see a couple of friends I hadn't seen in a while. Had a sip or two of beer, but mostly lots of snacks! It was a bad weekend for "dieting", but oh well, I was on "vacation" right?

Had a doctor's appointment today. The good news is that I don't have gestational diabetes. The bad news is that this baby is actually going to be a big baby. I guess next appointment we found out just how big and why. Other than that, some slight anemia, all else is good. Baby was quite active for us while listening to his heartbeat. Kicked the Doppler a few times and wouldn't stop moving. As uncomfortable as that gets sometimes (and due to be worse), that may be my favorite part. Every day, I get to feel this lil human inside me rollin' around kicking, punching, hiccuping whatever. It's pretty cool. I kind of feel like a kid, just amazed that a person is growing inside of a person, wondering what it's doing in there.