I had my first post-pregnancy nightmare last night. It scared the shit out of me. And of course, it was about my son. I can't imagine losing a child, well, apparently, I can dream it. It would be worse than losing a parent, which sucks, both times. I hate the fear part of being a parent. All I can hope is that he grows up to be happy and make good decisions.
On to more pleasant things. The kid is pushing 5 months now. And what a crazy 5 months it's been. Lots have happened all around. He's rolling over now and reaching for things and interested in the world around him. Does all of the typical baby things he's supposed to do. He's eating solid foods, and with the exception of his rice cereal, I've made it all. And 90% of his diet has been organic. Soon, I'll be growing his food as well. Right now, I've started pumpkins, basil, cucumbers and cantaloupe. I'm not holding my breath for the cantaloupe though.
Getting used to not having Yoshi around has been hard actually. It's weird going on walks and whatnot. Maybe I should change my route. The house had a really bad foundation leak, ruining our new floors (the same ones causing us to get rid of said dog). The leak itself has been repaired, so next have to find some one to repair the walls, and then have home depot come out for the 5th time and repair an entire room and hallway worth of flooring.
I'm working and that's been an adjustment. I hate working nights. For me, it leads to insomnia, drinking and poor eating. Fried egg quesadillas. Any way, the work is easy, but sometimes there is a little drama. It pays the bills and keeps bug out of daycare.
Looking forward to Halloween. I think we're going to be the "big candy bar" house.
